Friday, February 22, 2013

Dilema

Well I would say that it is about time to do another post. I am thinking of making it a goal to try and blog once a week at least. Since the new year, Jonah and I have been pretty busy. We were called to be the Primary teachers for the 5 year olds in our ward. It has been interesting. As you know, Jonah and I don't have kids, so it has been a bit of a challenge for us. I think it would be a challenge for anyone, considering that we have 12 kids in our class. :) I am willing to admit that I was not the most excited to be teaching Primary. I was very nervous being entrusted with the education of these little kids. Plus I was very nervous about being able to keep their attention. It's hard enough to keep the attention of one five year old, let alone 12. Luckily, I have the tools I need to help me become a better teacher. By tools, I mean my mother. She has been a primary chorister forever it feels like, so she had a lot of ideas that I am going to try out and see if they work for my kids. I am having a change of heart about my Primary calling. I am finding that I am viewing the church and the gospel through the simple eyes of a child. It is amazing how much I can learn from the simple comments that the kids will give on the lesson. Why do adults have to go and make things so complicated. The kids are the ones that have it down. :) Along with our new Primary calling, Jonah and I have spent a lot of time being sick, back and forth. We have both had the flu, then Jonah got bronchitis, and after that I got a neuro virus. It has been pretty miserable, and I am hoping that we got our sick time taken care of for the year. Two months of being sick is way too much. Once we were over our sick spells, we had something unexpected happen. My aunt Carol passed away. It was a surprise to everyone. I am thankful that I was able to attend her funeral. She was a wonderful lady. Now I want to vent about something a little personal, so I hope you don't mind. Heck, maybe you can give me some of your advice. Jonah and I really want to get moved to St George. We are both very tired of the weather and air quality up here, and I really want to be down there with my family. I miss them everyday. I hate that I miss out on the little family get togethers. I hate that I miss out on all my niece's and nephew's activities. Here are the few issues we have. First off, we don't have jobs down there, and they are hard to come by. Second, we have two homes up here that we need to worry about renting out. Third, and most difficult for me, I am emotionally ready to have kids now. However, I am not quite there physically, and if we move to St George, we won't be there financially either. I am torn at what I should do. I am ready to start a family, but I want to share it with my family and be able to be with them in St George, but it seems that I can't have my cake and eat it too. What to do. What to do.